im studying, okayy.

well i knw its late and i think i may have insomnia if i keep sleeping late.its become my habit now (maybe thats y my cheek is growing everydayy.wuargghh) next week is my first examination ever for my degree programme.hee.so im putting more efforts into this to achieve my goal bcause i screwed my assgnments so i need to back it up and im thinking of proving to my mom that i can get gud grades too.hehe.all this while im always fooling around, not taking things serioussly.well, 20 really helps me to be more matured, i guess..hurmm.have u read my older post? i want to take my words back.it was all crap.everything is going smoothly now.im left with the other one.i knw u dont really get wat i mean cause that is my real intention to make people knw nothing.he's left so im not in dilemma anymore.it shows to me who i should appreciate since he keeps on trusting and staying by my side and the fact that he knows me too well makes our bond stronger.he's a nice guy who takes care of me.well thats wat friends are for.ouh i wanna stop it here since i still have tons of books to read.since ive forgotten to post the pics for my birthdayy celebration.nah!

with ecah :)

my birthdayy wishes.

neesaa

 

 

ps:/thanks for all the wishes,text messages,phone calls and everything.not forgetting lela who didnt join us for our outing but involved in my birthdayy pranks.love yaww!

my bad :(

morning.its 4.52 a.m and i just got back from celebrating my birthday.im 20 this year and getting older each year.wuarggh.how was the celebration? awesome.its good to know that my friends cherished my birthday and putting away their works aside juz to spend some time with me.we were chatting and laughing like never before.the most shocking things was when i entered my room, my wall is filled with wordings and cards and of course they are pouring the baby powder on my bed, our tradition.no words can describe how touched i am to see how they are putting their efforts to make me surprised.i was delighted for everything that they did and all those birthday wishes and phone calls.wow, but i still feel something is lacking bcoz the two people who i think is important forget my birthday.i mean why out of all those other days? i was thinking wat did i do? i was holding tightly to my phone wondering when will they give me a call or maybe just a text saying 'hapy birthday'? ergghh. my life turned upside down bcause of them but again im feeling that i was the only one who make this relationship working out. serioussly i am regretting for letting those kind of people to influence and be part of my life.I**** is too nice and the other one is ignoring me for lying.i mean i had to bcause of my circumstances and i wanted to explain but he wouldnt listen.he wanted me to stop confessing the truth and never asked for the reasons.i dont know wat to do to clear up the things.well,i cant undo everything that i did.i should juz sit still than worsen the mess tht i made.enough said,i'll forget them when the time comes.things will be better, ryte?