im all that's left of a bizarre childhood

ive been stucked in this house for a week.im not coming home yet since i hve to send my relatives to london this wednesday.i love kl but im dying here if i dont get fresh air!fortunately i have the best aunt ever.she is nice,gentle and kool too.love ya!i love talking to her daughter.she's only 12 but she is knowledgeable about fashion.bcause today is so stuffy my cousin plan to take us to berjaya tymes square.im so exciting about it.u knw y??etude house is waiting for me.hahha.but my "pakjang" brought us to the theme park.i always like theme park.we played some kool and childish game.then my cousin invite me to ride roller coaster.for the first tyme in my life i feel so excited to play but before that we ride spacc attack.it almost killing me.i closed my eyes and i cant even shout because i am too scared.roller coaster is better than that.at least i can smile to the camera.peace!
we went out for 6 hours.when i opened the door i can hear someone babbling.for sure it is my grandma's sis(idk hw to tell u! ;) i dont want to comment about her.it was so much fun!tymes square has been my 3 place i like after genting and cameron highland.

sweet aliff loqman

spacc attack ;(

bye school,hello world??

hello world!im suck for introduction.the most happiest in my life is spm is over,hahhha.freedom!!!
im actually not enjoying like my friend does.im rather staying in my home sweet home.shahirah im so jealous.hahha in our group she is the only one who has a bf.mak dy pon restu tu.congrats.im happy for u,doe.sya2,nina,aeton,amal,shahirah so sorry.its not that im busy but i have some problems that i cant go out with u girls.amal knows the reason.im not mentioning ur name,atien.hahha sbb ank pon sama ja ngn ak.now im in my way to take for driving license and some english class as u can see im not that good in english.
thanks girls for being my friends!!it is the sweetest memory that i ever had.u girls rox!!

ps:?weh ak ckp goodbye tu for fun only.dont take it serious.

vma?im soo exciting

when i woke up this morning as usual i will watch television.i opened MTV accidentally and video music awards being shown.omg this is wat im waiting for.i saw the commercial of justin bieber vma last week and im counting for todayy.i watched them on 11 am means ive missed justin bieber performance since it started on 10 am.im a big fan of him even though he is younger than me but watever.hes cute and i love his voice.then when the best new artist announced,im screaming.its spontaneous.tonight vma being shown again.this tyme i wait in front of tv on 10.15 pm i have a guest plus i fight with my younger sis to watch vma but she wanted to watch momok the movie.when he performed im so excited feel like i wanna scream but no way,my dad is here and my mum is sleeping after the guest went home.if u look at my face at that tyme u will wonder y i give a big smile.its nothing its just jb performance but u will never understand if u dont like him.i think he had give the best performance ever.if i am those ladies i would do the same,screaming,chasing.i can be crazy.i really wish im among those ladies,they are so lucky to have justin bieber in front of them.i wish i could someday.

a girl's dream

finally ive got wat i want for 2 month im waiting.u guess wat?only the wedges that i want badly but since im busy with july test and trial i really cant go out plus im staying in hostel.it makes me think for this whole 2 month.i really no idea y i love the wedges.nothing special actually.maybe it is me that i really want to see some changes.i really want to be a truly girl would wear.im not saying that im boyish but i would choose sneakers rather than heels.so lately i changed my mind to be feminine even though i knw wat my friends will say."its funny to see u wear something like this".todayy i went to a mall to buy that wedges.to be honest,i really want to go that mall todayy to give myself the treat since ive got so many problems lately.u knw girl will shop when they r facing problems.at least i will 4get all those crappy stuff while shopping cause i really cant stop thinking when ive got any problem.
LOVE the WEDGES..
awkward

my wedges almost the same style and its black

nothing to do with me?fine.fine.

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U read.U think.U digest.its over.

idk wats happening.it just suddenly happened but u cant put all the blame on me.i appreciated every single tyme we spent on and i never think this would happen.have u ever think that is is ur fault or u dont?let me make things clearer for u.i started hurting with ur words when u said its all fake.mybe u dont realized that but at that tyme im shocked with ur expression bcause i never thought that u will said that mybe the programme didnt affect u but it worked on me.u r not really like her but still u r good with her.im not jealous.its fine with me but u guys left me and that day i went to school by myself bcause i thought u purposely did that.mybe u guys mad at me r something important happened.wat make me mad is u guys didnt tell anyone that u left me.i dont care act bcause i knw im the lastest that make u sick to wait for me.but at least tell me.im waiting for u guys okayy.i went to school alone in a bad mood.did u knw that?no right?bcause i nver told any of u.im afraid that it will be a big matter.i throw away all those hurt feeling.and then for a week u r not in a mood.at that tyme i dont talk to u.who wants to talk with a moody girl?then when the fasting month,i have class in the morning so i went with her.when the class is over how could i let her go by herself?it looks like im using her.i knw im not that 'kind'.i left u guys last week bcause i thought u didnt wait for me since we r not going to school together for a long tyme.i asked u not to wait for me since im the lastest and hello it is a fasting month.i dont want u to wait for me like a fool.im not saying that u r a fool but i dont want my friends wait for me for a long tyme.besides,sometymes idk whether u have go to school r not.n for a long tyme u tell me hw i want to talk to u?i cant leave them behind since they took care of me when ive got fever last tyme.they r not fully took care but enough to make me feel that there still people who cares about me.

changes?i hope soooo

i thought of having some fun this ramadhan like last years.no books.no exam.everything just fine even though my exam was suck.but this year i felt like a donkey follow all school programmes,hw blablabla.i never think bout my education as long as im happy but suddenly im afraid of this trial bcause it ensures if u get the scholarship or not.i really wish i could but im afraid of putting too much hope.it is my dream to stdy overseas.but i dont put much effort on this trial and i fell like i dont hve enough time.the clock is ticking and im still wasting my tyme watching movies.i couldnt stop myself.it just my heart that keep on saying chill la exam lmbt g.wtf do i hve such this heart.grr

i think i should stop now.its 1 am.i should start reading now.

wish me luck!!

Justin Bieber - Love Me

an old folk at hell

im tired of ur drama.u become worst when u want to show off to people that we're perfect but we r not and u just cant accept that.u're such a liar.u show wat is good and u hide bad things.u shout,scold in front of them to show u r a good ********.fuck,,shit.the way u would apologize is so annoying.go to hell la with ur fake words.if we r not good enough find someone that can fulfil ur criteria.if ur intention to guide us we wouldnt that mind.i said if u choose the correct ways.but wateva it is u're so annoying,insane and hypocritee.i hate when i met u i need to show my respect to u even though i dont have that.but still i need to coz u r an idiot fullstop

Justin Bieber on SNL

perkongsian pintar.smksa-smkdam

it was the best memory for smksa n ahmad maher(kelantan).for the last day everyone didnt miss to take photos together n all teachers gave permission for us to do watever we like.besides some teachers were busy n they didnt enter the class.so for f5 block it was like we were having a partyy.we took a lot of photos.even 2 guys in my class even wonder of themselves.they were like'kt skool kmi x cmni pon.hahha'everyone likes a superstar.flashing everywhere.it was fun act.but when it comes for the tyme for them to go tears everywhere.after recess which means they had gone,everyone looks moody and sad.i think so or mybe they r tired.,idk

it was the best memory ever!!!!

shafika,amalin,fahmie,shafik

nothing to say its boring anyway

aish im stucked in here.nowhere to go.its holiday but im not partyying.i mean hve fun.i want shopping badly but my parents working.i want to watch movies but i cant cause i had fight wit my lil sis.but the most thing that i wanna do is shopping.i dont hve any new cloth to wear.thats mean i need to wear same shirt.my old shirts become shorter besides now i dont like wearing short shirt.im growing bigger.so i really need new shirt,dress r watver.my friends also dont believe that i hve changed a lot.they was like"mey,ak x caya ank pkai bju mcm ni.ayu gla kot tp jln still rock"then when i 'jln' like a supermodel they was like wooohooo,mey jln silang.i juz dont want to show u girls my supermodel catwalk.derr.sitting in house everytime make my skin fairier.i like that but i am bored.and thats y i write all this.

lifee

mid year is over.extra class is over.im free right now but of course still a lot of homework to do.shit.i was thinking that this holiday i wanna do some revision at night.so i feel more relax and comfortable.i am so nervous to get my mid year result when school re-open so wait and see.but wateva it is i feel free.i wanna take a week to relax and revise so happy holidayyy.

Jimmy Surprises Bieber Fan

currently busy with mid year exam.will update soon:)

feelings;(

hey peeps it has been a long time i didn't update my blog.there are so many things happened within this time.last tue i had hockey comp we won and we deserved to nxt level.then on wed we won again wit smk kepala Batas wit 2-0.and here we go the semi final we need to fight wit smk convent.we had put all of our effort to fight them but lastly it was seri.both of us need to do penalty flick but convent had succeed shoot the ball.idk y suddenly my tears drop and i felt hard to breathe but i did like nothing bcoz i knw there were so many people crying here and they are juz like me keep our tears in our heart and waiting for it to burst out.intan(goalkepeer) was crying badly she thought that was her fault and blame all herself but its not 100% her fault but wateva it is we had done very well.the best part is when our coach clapped his hands after the game is over to show that he proud of us.

our fake smile:(

then when i came home when i look for the khalish pic i suddenly feel very sad. i realized that i missed him so much.i juz got a call fom tam.wua miss them.here is their vacation to brussels.

this kid is so naughty

mcm doll la

hee pnatnye...

hapy birthday

hapy birthday 2 u my lovely sister.hhahha jgn prasan lak.theres nothing i can say bout u cause everything i wanna say i hve told u.liar!watever it is u are sweet 15 and will be takin PMR.hahha

da tomorrow is ur birthday but u hve april test.kesian...to end my wish to u i will be sing u a song

hapy birthday to u

makan ubi kayu

hahha

blablabla x igt la that song

nk ltak gmbr but i cant bcoz cant open ridiculous stuff here

later la.

SUPER SWEET 15,LOVELY SIS!!!

WUAHHAHHA

bad luck!

heyy guys!!act i wanna update this blog yesterday when this incident happened but suddenly i didnt hve mood.i had adm3 class at 2 pm but 1.45 bru la i moved n u knw wat around 2.15 i still blom smpai.tkot la gakk kan g lmbt.malu.suddenly i got a new mssge from nina.'mey knapa tmpt ni knci ja pon?' and i was wondering too.so i said to her 'na,ank tggu tau jap g ak g kt ank'and i asked my brother to rush but i felt weird when he drived to other of my tsyn so i asked him whether he knew so he answered me back'kt tmn nuri kn?' oh my gosh!wrong way la plak.so i told him that i hve tsyn at other places and he was like'la napa x gtau.abg igt kt sni la' then i got a call from nina.'mey ank lmbt g ka?ak tkot la sensorg kt sni' 'weh jap abg ak ni slap jln la plak'
then when i reached there i asked her wats happened and she said 'sir ckp klas cancel for todayy.sir da sowh org yg cancel tu gtau.g mara dy sbb x gtau' and i was like 'owh okayy.jom g alor star mall.abg ak drive'.then when da smpai sna my brother went to the other way with his friend to buy his things but me n nina walk around bcause we dont know wat to do there.we went to the cinema to look for movies showing and wat is surprising me is there is ALICE IN WONDERLAND!they told me that this movie is not showing in kedah and i was like wat the F?but we didnt watch any movies bcause they r so boring and ticket for alice is fully booked
so we juz bought some popcorn and walk around.then nina suggested to have photoshoot.hahha
kinda funny photoshoot.

nina poyo

funny faces

kamie budak sekola

yesterday i had english n chemistry class.8-10 am english class.it is quite boring class.we juz did an exercise then discuss it.i was shocked bcause i never thought that the class has small group of students.so my english teacher was very mad at those who are not come.i did not hve mood to do the exercise n i was vry sleepy.then after recess we went to the lab for chemistry but then teacher plak x dtg.grrr dah tu ganti ngn ckgu laen plak 2.so i n nina decided not to go to the class.wuahahha kmie smmgnya bdak mlas.then when tgh tggu shahirah skema nk msok klas we sempat g make a photoshoot.photoshoot ke??please take a look.





shahirah mcm mak cik

so sorry ;)

girls im so sorry that i cancel our plan last minute.so sorry i have my own reason y i cancel that.
1.i felt vry scared after i saw all the spm results.i scared that i cant achieve my target
2.i really miss khalish wafy.he is going back this sunday and i dont want him to go back.he is so cute.i juz keep thinking bout him.
3.only stupid things(phone.luggage bla bla)
besides i really want to go home earlier myb bcause it has been 2 weeks i stayed in the hostel
that is the reason y i dont want to join u girls.hopefully u enjoy ur outing
im so sorry.i scared if i join u i will only spoil ur mood because of my problem but wateva it is i LOVE YOU G'S BEBEH!!

;)> @-----^%---++++++

owh lala i feel great 2day.not lala k.lala here means im vry hapy.last night i told mom that i want to make rebonding.here is the conversation between mom n me
me:mak nk bt rebonding sok bole x?
mak:nnti la lps xam buat la.bole effect otak la.da la nk xam.
me:x la.x effect pon la
mak:mak rsa rmbut skang ni cntk lg pa.nnti klau bt rsak blik.ari tu bt pn da rsak.
me:ok la.hummm
then i enter my room sadly.wuaaa but im not crying k.
today in the morning b4 my mom go to work,she awake me n said "kk mak ltak duit ni kt sni.nnti pegi kdai tu dlm pkoi 10 am cmtu"then my mom leave the money on the table.when i heard that i wake up and do some house chores.after that i take a bath b4 go to the saloon.i woke my bro to send me.wat a bad luck that i hve this moning the saloon is closed bcoz of chinese new yr.
sdey kot x bole bt rmbut ari ni.bru igt nk bt rmbut cm hayley williams.
then around 3 pm ive got phone call from mom.
mak:da bt rmbut?
me:x pon.kdai ttup la
mak:hri lain la bt k?
me:ok.bye
i feel touched deeply in my heart.i knw my mom doesnt really like it but at least she cares bout it.
trharu kot.ily mommy.

4 G

look at these girls,,they r beautiful,wealthy,gorgeous and they r best friends!!im seriously jealous to them.

Demi Lovato

Selena Gomez

Taylor Swift

Miley Cyrus

memey stupid confession,if u guys "want to knw it"

act i really dnt knw wat to do now.i have put all of my effort doing chemis but without any reference seriously i cant do it.idk wats wrong wit me i knw b4 that im not clever like u but i juz cant pay attention doing this.myb bcoz idk any single thing bout it or myb bcoz all those stupid things happen in this 2 weeks.hahha bru 2 weeks da jd mcm2.im glad that u take a very right decision bcoz i cant stand wit u anymore.i juz want to end our friendships.wateva u wanna talk shit bout me.i dont care anymore.im glad that u r not my frens anymore.bye
sara,nina,shahirah u guys r the best!!ahha jgn kmbg tau
love u guys
wekkk...

sara G

nina G

shahirah G

i wanna be made

i watched mtv made just now.there is a girl nme deanna if im not mistaken.she is totally mess wit big bag,old tshirt and her hair is teribble.she wanna be a model so she took part in mtv made.she has 6 weeks before the fashion show start en she was trained by stacey.stacey need to teach her fom top to the bottom.act she is beautiful but she doesnt has confidence.stacey bring her to the ballet class to build nice posture of her body then teach her hw to walk,wearing heels,hw to flirt wit guys n hw to be a model.after 2 weeks she looks better en has more confidence.she likes her schoolmate,aaron.oh my gosh!he is so cute.so she asks him to go out for a date en aaron is agree.when the day comes,he tells deanna that he need to practice en his gf getting mad.deanna kinda shock because she never thought that aaron has a gf.everything is blew up.mybe aaron thinks deanna is not hot but i praise him for his look but it doesnt mean i agree wit him.he looks like a cool guy en i like his style.then she asks christian another guy she likes.they go for a date.i think christian is so sweet and kind even though he is not cut as aaron.then christian asks her for another date.after a week,stacey changed diana hairstyle,buy her new dress,heels,makeup...etc.now she looks vry beautiful en everyone wants to be her friend.then the competition day comes.she walks on the stage confidently even when she wanna takes off her jacket,her hand is stuck.now then they call all models to gather on stage to announce the winner. they announce the best pose,walk,dress and lastly overall performance.en the winner is deanna.yeah!she was so happy en proudly taking the trophy.christian is there to gives her support.he congrats her en happy for her.the best part is he asks if deanna wants to be his gf.owh so sweet.en that is the end for the story.i hope that will happen to me too someday.hahha
i wanna be made.

byee 2009,hyee 2010

sedar x sedar da msok yr 2010.en i will take spm this yr.y time is so fast?i need to wake up en study harder 4 all of my exam.pray 4 me okayy?i will pray 4 u too.insyaallah
i really love 2009 bcause most of my sweet memories is in 2009.2009 i will miss u.
i need to say bye to my old lifestyle en try new one.
after this,rarely update my blog.thanks 4 reading :)