u never guess;O

now, i am doing well. the past two weeks was hard on me. i've read somewhere about teenagers like me sometimes in doubt searching for my identity.so i think i was searching for it two weeks ago that my head felt like it would burst.fortunately,i think i've FOUND it! ohsem.no more burden on my shoulder.~relieved~last night, when i opened ZALORA, i found JB's t-shirt.OMG!i've searched for it for two years but never thought that i will find it.a long time ago, there was an online shopping website of JB stuff. i really wanted to grab the hoodie with his face printed on it but it is an international website. i was afraid that the shipping cost expensive so i decline my intention. now that ZALORA-free shipping is here,i'm just going to grab it this time.i'll show it later when i bought it.hehe.too many wishlist that i still didn't accomplish.gosh my fragrance just finished IN TIME.great!forget all of the above.it just a crap.well here's a thing. i wrote about Cyber Love in my LDV essay.it was based on true story which is my story of course.no big deal act but when i reread my old post.there's nothing about my love story in the past.i normally dont like to talk about personal stuff here but this was in the past.so who cares?here's the story:

a long tme ago there's a girl who had a Myspace account for her in order to get many friends.suddenly there's a guy from ******* wanted to knw her.they started as friends to best friends. both of them really had a good tme together.every day they would talk about what's happening around them.one day, this girl told the guy that another guy asked to go out with him.she asked for his opinion as she did not hit on him.the guy then confessed to her his true feelings that he loved her more than a friend.he wanted to be someone special to her.this time around the girl accepted him just to gain some experience having relationship with someone out her league.unable to cope well with him because of his jealousy, the girl asked for a breakup.the guy couldnt accept it but she convinced him that they were not compatible.being heartbroken was the most painful feelings thus the guy asking for her back.of course the girl still in love with him but she didnt want things to repeat twice.she decided to move on.she doesn't like to burden herself so she deleted all her memories with him.their account.EVERYTHING.`the end.
well its kinda boring story but it was a story of my life.i hope that when i am old and i looked back at this post, i will reminisce my high school memories.nothing much just memories that never erased;)

ps://i hate when someone copycat my smell.please not the smell.

i think i want this one

but then this one look awesome but its not appropriate to wear faces printed on the shirt.

setiap yg berlaku ada hikmahnya;)

its 1 am again.oh well i must be very bz to update my blog late at night.heh.i juz learnt something new.everything is happened for a reason in other words ada hikmah setiap yg berlaku;) so smile and reflect back to myself mybe i did something wrong.or thats not the best choice because no one is perfect.i am fated to be here rather than kms.i am fated to be here without any of my friends.i am fated to be away from my family which is the first tme.i am fated to live with senior who i dont really like.we have no chemistry at all.i am fated to have no one.but it makes me think back i have Allah. He listens when im crying and help me by giving me the strength that i needed.alhamdulillah.i promised to myself to be strong and only thinks about achieving my goal.selfish? yes, i am cause sometimes i need that if i love myself.i may dissapoint with my result cause i put too much hope in it but its not wrong to have a high expectation and to keep dreaming.lately i keep reminding to myself dont sigh for everything happens.theres no point in pointing fingers.just pray to Him cause he knows the best.things are not always what i want.well this is called life, full of obstacles:)its almost 2am.so i gtg.i stillhve class tomorrow