homesick :(

its 12.15 pm and i couldnt sleep.i was chatting wit sya2 talking bout things in the past.she made me cry when she talked bout hw we used to hang out,hw she missed all of us.to be honest im freakin sensitive when u talk bout friends.see im cryin when im typin the word friends.i knw u cant see me.wat a crap.actually there was an incident where i was pushed away to somewhere and i was thinkin my friends wont do that.i was sobbering for the stupid things.i was thinking by myself y im crying?theres nothing to cry for.im just being too sensitive.its not like im not happy being here but only todayy im crying.it should be a month ago.what i hate the most is the rules.i cant wear the way i dressed outside.no skinny jeans.the top should be below the knee.im fine with it but sometimes this annoyed me as im not that kind of person who can change and adapt to the environment.i knw its my profession that i have to but i dont want to be hypocrite.i want my heart to do that not only physically.suddenly todayy im feelin like going home but there is no way.my home is too far away and im so tired to go home every week.i miss my family.listening to save you song by sp is like im yelling for a help.i wanna go home so badly.i want to be the old me.i dont want to change anything bout me.i like the way i was.singing stay close,dont go by secondhand serenade alone is not kool.i want to sing with my girls.i think i should stop.i dont want my eyes swollen as i have class tomorrow.