beginning of new life in ipg

assalamualaikum.hw r u my gorgeous reader?im great.tq.owh btw i will be a teacher!last week i was busy with orientation week.i only get 2 hours to sleep and i dont even have the tyme to eat.so i think i lost about 5kg.haha.there was a night where i couldnt sleep so i woke up.while waiting i made a quick decision that i want to take a bath earlier so that i didnt have to rush since we have to gather at 5am.on 3.45am i went to bathroom to take a shower.no one was there and the atmosphere was silence and scary like we watch horror movie.at that tyme i didnt think any of that.i took a long tyme to take a shower suddenly i heard the water tapping so i was thinking owh finally someones here but when i think about it i didnt hear any sound of shoe soles.then my heart beating faster i wish i can run away but i make myself relax.i put on towel as fast as i can and leave.i walk away.when i reached my room i grateful that im fine.when i told my friend this thing they warned me not to do it again.when i think bout it i never think that i have done that.it took courage and i dont have that.forget bout that.i love studying here.no pressure.awesome roomate.smell of hardwork and kool senior.i dont see anything bad.maybe im newbies so i dont knw much.to all my lovely gff i always love u.wish me the best.if i get 3.8 to 4 i will have the chance to further my studies in england for 2 yrs.hopefully my dream will come true.

my last word

assalamualaikum my lovely readers.u know wat?im 18 NOW.ow yeah!thank you eton,amal,nina,sya2 for ur presents.i love them.and thank u for ur hb wished.owh act my besday is not the reason im blogging.i made it!i mean i got ipg aka maktab.my brain got sick thinking where i want to go after this.u?matriks?maktab?so after thinking like crazy i made my last decision.i wanna go to maktab.i think this is the best for me.my parents support me damn much to choose maktab rather than others.the reason?surely i have the job.at first i dont wanna be a teacher but after thinking how hard these days to get a job i chose maktab.my aunt also a teacher.only a few years working,she can afford to buy honda city.being a teacher have a lot of free tyme.when im getting married for sure i wanna spend most of my tyme with my fam.i have to think for future.if i only think about wat i want to be without thinking of my future evrything will be useless.i accept all this as my fate.omg i cant wear my shawl anymore for the tyme being as i have to wear the casual outfit.white tudung,white baju kurung and black shoes.i will be goin to ipoh this june.i will miss my friend.i love u all.never ever think that i will be this far.im gonnna miss all our memories but dont forget me.i will post ur gift as u do.to my lovely friends who didnt get maktab maybe its not ur career in future.think in positive way.this is truly my last words to u.im not trying to cherish u but please take it as ur fate.im freakin sad that i didnt get mara.im being moody the whole day thinking bout that.when i rethink bout it i know its not my desire.i just want to success in the intvw bcause i dont want to be such a failure.plus if i get maktab and mara i dont knw wat to choose since some of my fam want me to choose mara and some maktab.but one thing for sure my parents want me to choose maktab.till we meet again girlfiriends.daaa

intvw mara

hey all.it has been ages since my last post.i wanna tell u something.finally i got interview mara.at first when i apply for mara i want this badly.but then when i need to go for an intvw i feel like cmon i dont wanna do this anymore.some sort of tired went for an intvw.but my mom told me to go and i feel like mybe i should go.i will decide later.so i went to shah alam for the intvw.one night b4 i called nina to ask her and she told me that they are going to ask us to make a bridge connecting two table using the spagheti.so i google for it but there are lots of them.so im not sure whether im gonna use the one that i google.when i was waiting outside the room with my group im freakin nervous.6 boys and 2 girls including me.we must sit according to the no given.so i have to sit between of them and the other girl sit at the end.idk wat to talk about.i heard most of them are 9 a's that makes me more scared to talk.then boy sitting beside me asked
b:skola mane?
i:asma
suddenly the other boy sitting next to me asked
b:sultanah asma?
i:ya
b:datang dri kedah
i:ya
b:datang smalam?
i:ya
datang ngan parents?
i:ya.
b:name ape?
i:**** *******
b:owh.
b:main pancaragam?
i:dak
b:ambk course ape?
i:tesl
so thats only our conversation.im not snobbish.it just that im so nervous that i cant talk.i wanna ask him back but im not comfortable since we sat too close.u can even see my pores thats y i hate it.but when the others heard  that i came from kedah they asked me this and that.afiq then tell us the plan to make the spagheti bridge.he told us to pretend to be shock like"owh spagheti' they are so funny and make me comfortable to be in their group.i didnt talk so much during the intvw.the boys overwheelming the girls.they talk a lot and even name the bridge.'our bridge''mara bridge' and even 'anggerik bridge' since we have to assemble at anggerik mall.the boy from penang wanna help me by asking me to tie the spagheti."do u wanna help me tie this?""no,idk but let me hold it"the boy even laugh when i said that.when the question being asked to me my answer have alot of 'and um'.the coclusion is i ruined my intvw.i should be comfortable with my surrounding

ps:i went to shah alam for the intvw.so im deadly tired.pray for me which path should i choose

i wanna crush u

i watched glee last night and i couldnt sleep thinking of sammy evans.he is my second crush after bieber.before this i already fell in love wit him but watching him with bieber style he looks so cute.i think bieber haircut suits him.since i didnt go to jb's concert its enough for me if i watched his movie but i dont have the oppurtunity to do so.here is the video of glee last night.hopefully u like it like i do.

baby

somebody to love

ps://yes im a GLEEK

interview i wish i love

hey all.i miss u bloggss.lately im busy with my preparation for interview pluss internet connection got a big problem.u knw wat?todayy is a big dayy.i have an interview at ipda.i wish u knw wat is it.future teacher loh.i wear my shawl as usual,my baju kurung and my vincci shoes.have u ever heard a girl go for an interview wear shawls like u want to partayy?i did that.im not weirdo but i feel comfortable to wear like i used to.so without wasting tyme,this is my crap tyme during the interview.

me:M

interviewer:I

I:okayy wat do u think about social network like fb to teenagers?i mean do u agree?

M:yes.because people need that to communicate with others.like me i talk 2 my old friend using fb.even last night i talk wit my friend about todayy.wat to prepare.

I:uhumm.owh really?so wat did u prepare?

M:1 malaysia and vision 2020

I:tell me about 1 malaysia

M:1 malaysia is inspired by our prime minister najib tun razak.the logo of 1 malaysia is no 1 and inside the number 1 is jalur gemilang and word malaysia.1 malaysia is about combination of 3 races such as malay,chinese and indian.

I:so wat about other races in sarawak?they r not 1 malaysia?

M:yes they r also 1 malaysia but 1 malaysia is mostly about these 3 races

I:who is the minister of education?deputy minister of education 1 and 2?

M:Y.A.B dato muhyiddin bin mohd yasin.dr ir wee ka siong.dr mohd puad bin zarkashi

I:i can see that u r doing homework ryte?u rin the right path.then give me the third rukun negara

M:errrr.i dont know.can u change the topic?
I:NO.then list me rukun negara

M:kepercayaan kpd raja.

then when the interviewer make bunkface i changed my answer.

M:eeeeh.kesetiaan kpd raja.then i dont know

I:u have to read a lot.so i can see that u r so fashionable.(look from top to the bottom of me)follow the fashion.so wat do u think about fashionable teacher?teacher who likes to follow the trend?do u agree?

M:yes.of course.im still young.but when i become a teacher i will change my fashion.as a teacher we should be fashionable because if teacher is messy students will talk something bad about the teacher.we have to be fashionable because when the students see it will give them first impression.

I:i agree wit u.a teacher should be fashionable but dont over fashion(i feel like he said to me)

M:okayy

I:okayy.that's all.tq

M:tq

i wear my shawls like this style for an interview

ps://just come back from mall to release my tension.looking for jb's album but they all sold out.new album hasnt arrive yet.wat a kora

awful YOU

oh my Gucci.todayy i have good news and freaking news.so good news or freaking news first?let me guess freaking news ryte?i got plkn.u knw PLKN?the place where people get all tanned and thin.it doesnt suits me at all.i will go on 15 may.lucky me at least i dont have to celebrate my bufday in a camp.awful.the venue?langkawi baby.i live in jitra.y did u pick me and put me in langkawi?im scared.i wish i will get friends.i will miss u bff.good news?i got maktab but not sure yet since i have to attend an interview this monday.i will do my best.pray for me.if i get maktab in june i will leave u PLKN.maktab thanks 4 saving me.i hope i wont be negro.

KUMPULAN	:	2
	PUSAT BERKUMPUL	:	DEWAN WAWASAN, JITRA
	NEGERI PUSAT BERKUMPUL	:	KEDAH
	NAMA KEM	:	KEM PLKN LAGENDA SERI NEGERI, LANGKAWI, KEDAH
	ALAMAT KEM	:	JALAN BATU ASAH
	POSKOD KEM	:	07000
	BANDAR KEM	:	LANGKAWI
	NEGERI KEM	:	KEDAH
	TARIKH LAPOR	:	15-MAY-2011
	MASA LAPOR	:	9:30 PAGI

ily is hard to say but i hate u is the easiest word

to be honest,wat will u do when u are tired of something(i mean tired of drama)?sleep?eat?or forget it?act like nothing happen?maybe i will sleep or eat or do nothing.wat a crap.but this is a true story.no offend i'm not siding anyone.but i have a friend who makes me cry reading her blog.hey girl,thanks for causing me drop a tear.only 1 okayy?reading her post makes me realize there are many types of friends in this world.normally when the friend has gone human beings love to recall memories with him.i really dont understand y dont appreciate when the friend still with us?y must wait until he gone?that included me.but the reality is me either dont have the answer.one more thing how can a couple/partners/husband and wife/bestfriends/lesbians/gay/watsoeva forget wat they used to have for someone else?reason given 'i just dont love u anymore.my feeling towards u has faded' how could u? y dont recall those things that we used to do with our love one when both having a problem.things can changed.when the decision has made things still can be changed so for the reason like 'wat goes around comes around' is useless.sincerely this post has nothing to do with anyone.so the main point is i wanna tell u that im crying for u bebeh.its u shahirah.u really makes me cry.i think every single words is ur true feelings and it comes out from bottom of ur heart.

crying words: 

aku rasa aku yang salah kot...

sbb memilih tuk menjadi rapat dgn kau..

tuk kongsi hal2 peribadi aku dgn kau..

KEPERCAYAAN..

aku mmng dh maafkan kau dh..

segala2nya..

cuma satu ja aku mintak..

TOLONG JANGAN GANGGU HIDUP AKU LAGI..

CUKUP LA SETAKAT DULU SAJA KITA KENAL..

JANGAN CUBA NAK DEKAT2 DENGAN AKU LG DAH..

ENOUGH..

AKU DH MMNG SAKIT HATI SANGAT DH NH..

DAN AKU XMAU HATI AKU NH TERUS SAKIT..

bb KITA XPENAH SEFAHAMAN PUN..

TAK PENAH..

aku cuma faham kau sebagai KAWAN AKU..

aku lebih menghargai SEBUAH PERSAHABATAN ...

daripada PERASAAN YANG TAH APA2 TUH..

mmng ad faktanya yg mengatakan..

PEREMPUAN AKAN LEBIH MEMILIH PERCINTAAN DARIPADA PERSAHABATAN...

mmng xboleh dipertikaikan semua tuh..

ini adlah berdasarkan kajian..

tp kalau RASA CINTA PADA ALLAH MELEBIHI SEGALA2NYA..

mungkin semua nh masih boleh dikawal kn..

ok..aku bukanlah sapa2 tuk menilai kau 

dan kita teruskan hidup masing2...

anggap kita hanyalah sebagai kawan lama waktu sek men saja..

xlebih pada tuh..

hidup aku baru saja nk bermula..

terus menuju ke puncak..

when u have a friend write these words wat will u do?i feel like useless when i have nothing to do when a friend is crying somewhere thinking how regret she was befriend with some other friend.thinking of my friend is suffering alone makes me suffer too.is this wat real bff really means?when bff hurting us the wound takes time to heal.love to bff faded for the time being.

if this is the reality for having bff maybe in future i will only have a lot of friends.the truth is reality is always different from imagination.

p/s:im not a crybaby.lately sad songs touch my heart.maybe at this age i realized wat real world is