one direction towards success

assalamualaikum.it was so funny when i read my older posts.my writing was so childish and i spurted everything in my mind with thousands of grammar errors.but when i looked back i recall all the feelings though i hve forgotten most of them.its all in the past. now im in third sem which is much better.i sat beside neesa n lela n m lovin it.i always laugh bcoz they r so funny and understand me well.btw i hve a crush on someone but m not going to put any hope on him.dont want to be heartbroken like i used to recently.i should open my heart and forget the past.i want to forget bout love story for a while to focus more on my stdy.i will work harder this sem.mum, i wont dissapoint u.i'll make u smile seeing my grades though its not my desire to be here.i need to pass all the obstacles to succeed in my life.

its almost dawn

its almost 4a.m but i couldnt sleep.waiting for subuh trus laa tkowt x bgun lak japg.after reading some of the bloggers' posts i feel enthusiastic to chase after my dream.i want to live a simple and luxury life.going to be a teacher soon so i may live truly a plain and simple life.started to think my future.hoping i will meet mr right soon to cherish my boring and dull life;)

awkward post

the girl i rely the most;)

assalamualaikum.brrr feels awkward to update my blog since the last tme.tehee.(gara2 neesasaori rsa nk updte ni).ive got a gud news!we might be able to fly to England to further my stdy.YES england,UK.kool ryte?dont be jealouss.dream comes true after all those challengers that i faced staying here.IF this is going to happen i'll be the most happiest girl in the world.btw i think its better for me to stay away from those people who has hurting me since i step into here.i was hurt when these people isolate us just because the rumours that they heard.serioussly did they ever think of us when they did that?if they trust me they wouldnt do that.i hate when people are making their assumptions without knowing the truth.for all this while i guess m right when i chose her to be my bff.i never think she would do such thing.she destroy my loyalty when she told someone that she shouldnt bout me.she frowns when i told her bout my crush.she hates to hear my problems.she is stingy.she acts like she's the one who raised me.she's using me whenever she wants to.is this wat u called a bff?i was shocked when she truthfully told me that she hated to hear my complains.my heart is bleeding at that moment right away she spites those hateful words.i stuttered bcoz my heart was crying.i promised to myself that i'll never tell her my life,my problems,nothing bout me.when its tme for us to divide the task to do some props things,she instructed us to follow her.when i see her true colors and i fell like i cant stand her anymore i tried to avoid her cause m afraid one day i will explode and tell everyone her shit attitude.i thought everything is gonna be alright when i keep silence but when i heard she tells evrybody she has NO IDEA y we mad,i knw right away wat she is trying to do.try to gain people's attention to symphatize wit u.pity u biatch.i guess no one wants to be on ur side.we keep to fuck our mouth shut in order to keep our madness towards u.we tried our best to let it be.serioussly i feel like i was lied by these people by their nice looking fce.it was hurt when u see ur own friends turning their heads whenever u talk to them and they just cant hide their awkward faces.i dont blame them but at least cant they ask us wat happened or dont interfere.i guess they dont undestand after all.we tried our best to hide this shit things.i was thinking let it pass by time cause i dont want to settle it.i will leave her the way i found her for the first tme i met her.i might be cruel but i hate to lie to myself.if i cant accept her anymore wat's the point i keep her?m happy the way i am now.i will try to delete those memories because it feels like someone stabs me
this is wat i feel from the bottom of my heart.i dont need to explain anything to anyone.they dont hve any right to judge me.sorry if anyone terasa.really its not my intention.

they are in my shoes

my life has turned upside down since i stepped in here.everything sucks and the most revealing fact is that m starting become people hater.m trying to adapt myself and show them the true color of me but it seemed i shouldnt or i should stop pretending that m okayy hearing their fuck words.honestly m trying to hold back my anger.they r just so annoying.i mean not all of them but some of them.i just cant resist my hatred.m starting blamed everyone around me for my faith.i knw i may hurt my friends with my harsh words.sometimes they are too mean.i didnt take it serious but when i make a joke they couldnt accept then they shouldnt start it first.right now i feel like i need someone.after the incident i dont feel like crying anymore.i knw i can do nothing.but hopefully i can manage and try to like this shit place where my fake world begins.i mean who cares??

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my heart's story

m glad that m home.at least i can forget all those things for a while.m just sick of their world.live in the world of faking.trying to please everybody.m happy todayy as i went to matrik 4 my lovely gf.i mean my kool gf.im so jeloss of u,eton.pkai braces color pink.i wanna that badly.hue spa nak sponsor?my sugar daddy?keeps on dreaming lah.btw they made my day ;) tomorrow m goin back to that place.such a lame and horrible place.ive got so many problems there.i guess i cant keep it anymore.im trying my hardest to be patience.the real intention of this boring post?m happy.thats it.

look at ur left side.she is trying to show her braces.its pink babe!

if u look carefully.i hve no expression.this is when m happy

sucks

life is sucks ryte?m pretty sure there must be this feeling once in ur life unless u r a weirdo or u always enjoy ur life and see life others than people's view. idk hw long i can stand with her.m pretending to be a nice girl who never gets angry but idk if i can stand any longer. wat i hate most is someone pretending to be nice in front of me but behind me talk shit and did something stupid.i knw my words are harsh to said that to her but honestly i couldnt stand anymore.i dont like people who trampled over me when m being nice to u. never think of me as a nice girl who accept all ur words and actions using my things carelessly.i knw u r a rich girl but m not.m only an ordinary girl who takes care of my things carefully.seriously m being patient for now.one more thing is i hate studying here.so old fashioned.my dream studying in university is useless.
pray for me so that i can accept the fact i need to study here for another 5 yrs.silly me.