my last word

assalamualaikum my lovely readers.u know wat?im 18 NOW.ow yeah!thank you eton,amal,nina,sya2 for ur presents.i love them.and thank u for ur hb wished.owh act my besday is not the reason im blogging.i made it!i mean i got ipg aka maktab.my brain got sick thinking where i want to go after this.u?matriks?maktab?so after thinking like crazy i made my last decision.i wanna go to maktab.i think this is the best for me.my parents support me damn much to choose maktab rather than others.the reason?surely i have the job.at first i dont wanna be a teacher but after thinking how hard these days to get a job i chose maktab.my aunt also a teacher.only a few years working,she can afford to buy honda city.being a teacher have a lot of free tyme.when im getting married for sure i wanna spend most of my tyme with my fam.i have to think for future.if i only think about wat i want to be without thinking of my future evrything will be useless.i accept all this as my fate.omg i cant wear my shawl anymore for the tyme being as i have to wear the casual outfit.white tudung,white baju kurung and black shoes.i will be goin to ipoh this june.i will miss my friend.i love u all.never ever think that i will be this far.im gonnna miss all our memories but dont forget me.i will post ur gift as u do.to my lovely friends who didnt get maktab maybe its not ur career in future.think in positive way.this is truly my last words to u.im not trying to cherish u but please take it as ur fate.im freakin sad that i didnt get mara.im being moody the whole day thinking bout that.when i rethink bout it i know its not my desire.i just want to success in the intvw bcause i dont want to be such a failure.plus if i get maktab and mara i dont knw wat to choose since some of my fam want me to choose mara and some maktab.but one thing for sure my parents want me to choose maktab.till we meet again girlfiriends.daaa

intvw mara

hey all.it has been ages since my last post.i wanna tell u something.finally i got interview mara.at first when i apply for mara i want this badly.but then when i need to go for an intvw i feel like cmon i dont wanna do this anymore.some sort of tired went for an intvw.but my mom told me to go and i feel like mybe i should go.i will decide later.so i went to shah alam for the intvw.one night b4 i called nina to ask her and she told me that they are going to ask us to make a bridge connecting two table using the spagheti.so i google for it but there are lots of them.so im not sure whether im gonna use the one that i google.when i was waiting outside the room with my group im freakin nervous.6 boys and 2 girls including me.we must sit according to the no given.so i have to sit between of them and the other girl sit at the end.idk wat to talk about.i heard most of them are 9 a's that makes me more scared to talk.then boy sitting beside me asked
b:skola mane?
i:asma
suddenly the other boy sitting next to me asked
b:sultanah asma?
i:ya
b:datang dri kedah
i:ya
b:datang smalam?
i:ya
datang ngan parents?
i:ya.
b:name ape?
i:**** *******
b:owh.
b:main pancaragam?
i:dak
b:ambk course ape?
i:tesl
so thats only our conversation.im not snobbish.it just that im so nervous that i cant talk.i wanna ask him back but im not comfortable since we sat too close.u can even see my pores thats y i hate it.but when the others heard  that i came from kedah they asked me this and that.afiq then tell us the plan to make the spagheti bridge.he told us to pretend to be shock like"owh spagheti' they are so funny and make me comfortable to be in their group.i didnt talk so much during the intvw.the boys overwheelming the girls.they talk a lot and even name the bridge.'our bridge''mara bridge' and even 'anggerik bridge' since we have to assemble at anggerik mall.the boy from penang wanna help me by asking me to tie the spagheti."do u wanna help me tie this?""no,idk but let me hold it"the boy even laugh when i said that.when the question being asked to me my answer have alot of 'and um'.the coclusion is i ruined my intvw.i should be comfortable with my surrounding

ps:i went to shah alam for the intvw.so im deadly tired.pray for me which path should i choose